Flying pokemon master (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} birdboy2000) wrote,@ 2008-09-10 14:40:00 |
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Status update.
In case someone reading cares about me...
I... haven't recovered. I'm still sad and lonely and enormously bitter and wishing I had the strength of isolation I once possessed and way too broken up about this. Saying "I'm okay" is premature, I think; there was still a part of me, somewhere in the back of my mind, which hoped the LHC would create a black hole and destroy the Earth.
But... I've stopped hating myself. I've found that thing called "self-esteem" that people seem to need. And... I've finally gone a week without contemplating suicide. Which means, I think, that I've regained the will to live. ^_^
In case someone reading cares about me...
I... haven't recovered. I'm still sad and lonely and enormously bitter and wishing I had the strength of isolation I once possessed and way too broken up about this. Saying "I'm okay" is premature, I think; there was still a part of me, somewhere in the back of my mind, which hoped the LHC would create a black hole and destroy the Earth.
But... I've stopped hating myself. I've found that thing called "self-esteem" that people seem to need. And... I've finally gone a week without contemplating suicide. Which means, I think, that I've regained the will to live. ^_^
