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Sunday, August 1st, 2027
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7:04 pm
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Umm... this used to be an "I HAS DIGIMON EPISODES" post, but they're easier to find than they once were.
I'm an EU3-addicted otaku. At the moment, a NEET as well, but that probably won't last beyond the semester - earlier on I was majoring in history. Friend if interested, but be warned of despair entries.
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| Friday, March 5th, 2027
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2:36 pm
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Card post for ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) anime_lj_tcg
Spiral decks:
  
Digimon:
Rurouni Kenshin:
Code Geass:(I only really want Lelouch and CC, but I do like the series. Will trade other characters for the stuff I'm collecting, but will trade tradebait for other characters.)
Ouran (will trade for Fushigi Yuugi, Digimon, Kenshin, Geass or Furuba. But like enough to mark seperately or even trade for.)
Pure Tradebait
         
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| Tuesday, July 14th, 2009
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5:46 pm
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My computer just got virused badly. I hope it's fixable. T_T
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4:04 pm
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- Digimon Tamers has an excellent first episode and is in all likelihood an amazing anime. Digitalrewind's on to it and I'll be watching.
- Headed to Otakon this weekend. It should be fun. Won't be cosplaying, because the flatiron for my hair is not available at the moment and I had no energy to get another costume done.
- On a related note, picked up Digimon World: Dusk for the car ride. (And pokemon dash, but I suspect I'll be playing Dusk more. Gonna bring TWEWY as well, though I've beat the main game.) I hope I don't beat it too quickly, 'cause I don't have much to do back home (read, on my PC) except the Pokemon TCG. (Which I am in no way obsessed with. Rly.)
- All-star game tonight! I'll be watching because despite being an otaku, I'm also a hopeless Sox fan. Especially since the AL team will have a knuckleballer - hope he actually gets in the game. (I've been following the team since about when Wake came up, and he's long been my favorite player, so I'm happy for him.)
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| Saturday, July 11th, 2009
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1:12 pm
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| Greed: | Medium
| | | Gluttony: | Medium
| | | Wrath: | Low
| | | Sloth: | Very High
| | | Envy: | Very Low
| | | Lust: | Medium
| | | Pride: | Very Low
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Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
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| Friday, July 10th, 2009
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1:03 pm - Decklists!
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| Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
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9:46 pm
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I don't feel miserable now. I have a 1337 girlfriend and enough academics to exhaust me. (Three hour classes are DRAINING), and my self-esteem's a bit higher than it has been, too. It's just that sometimes (read: today) the whirling circle of thoughts from my day-to-day life breaks, and I feel empty.
Okay, there's a bit of bitterness and longing and hatred too, but that all strikes me as somewhere my brain's defaulting BECAUSE I'm empty and I used to think about nothing else. It's not an all-consuming or even driving feeling, just one that comes up when I'm extremely bored, BECAUSE I'm extremely bored and I'm so used to thinking about it. (Which, y'know, I should stop. But repressing memories is difficult, and it feels like the alternative isn't going somewhere else in my head, but an utter abyss of thought.)
Am I really so weak that my main online haunts being down does this to me? Can I still not handle boredom without being overwhelmed by nihilism? Few people consider themselves to have a purpose in life, many just spend it doing what they enjoy, but they don't get like this over it... not openly, anyway.
At least it's better than despair - true despair. It's not making me suicidal or anything. But it still really, really sucks.
I just want to be okay. ;_;
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| Saturday, July 4th, 2009
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6:52 pm
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So, umm...
I tend to update my lj when bored or miserable. You can literally track my emotional state/boredom levels by tracking the frequency of my lj entries. (It's not deliberate, really!) I haven't updated since last Monday.
In the meantime, I've shed my NEETdom (class was... annoyingly long. Though you can say that about most 3.5-hour classes,) read Order of the Stick, sketched out a D&D campaign (I really hope I can pull this off), beat my TVtropes addiction(for the moment, anyway), and remembered why I love the pokemon TCG. (LackeyCCG.com . Lets you play CCGs online. Liek pokemon. Is awesome and addicting.)
...this week was fun. Wish I recorded more of it. Bored again now, though, and it's the kind of boredom where you just finished something awesome, so the mundane everyday things don't hold your attention that much.
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| Monday, June 29th, 2009
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3:14 am - Recent pet crack theories
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(If I told these to anyone elsewhere, I apologize for making you read it again here.)
Tohru Honda, with her red and white colors(see: swimsuit chapter), excessive politeness, and attempts to keep the peace among Kyo and Yuki, represents Canada.
Yagami Hikari is Seiryu no Miko in an e-book version of The Universe of the Four Gods. This is why she glows. And gets her wish granted at the end. The dark ocean, of course, is Seiryu trying to devour her - note the Airdramon. The 01 chosen are her seishi, but the computer is a very old model which has trouble with Chinese characters (note the digicode everywhere) so it gives them digimon instead. Tailmon's ring is the shinzaho.
(I haven't figured out what the 02 kids are, yet. It'd work brilliantly if 01 had 02's ending. And Qinglongmon. XD)
Oscar François de Jarjayes was based on the historical figure of d'Eon Beaumont. (Okay, probably not. But I can't stop thinking of Chevalier when I watch Rose of Versailles, and vice versa.)
Code Geass involves a massive, brutal war in which WMDs are used, and at the end, despite Lelouch's plan, the world will probably descend into anarchy. And guess who's unaffected? (Brisbane, presumably, is already the capital of Australia.)
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| Friday, June 26th, 2009
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10:41 pm
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Just discovered lackeyCCG. If it didn't disconnect me every time I tried to play, I'd love it. Maybe it's my firewall?
Anyway, if you play TCGs, I'm sure it's awesome. If you can work it. x.x
(Also, literally browsed TVtropes all day.)
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12:39 am
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I have seen women who burn like paper and teenage girls who end up destroying all life on earth. I've seen harems and reverse harems, yandere and tsundere, magical girls and mechs. - I enjoyed both Fruits Basket and LoGH. I've seen a degenerate human race dependent on machines in 2999, I've seen the worst democracy fight the best dictatorship in the 39th. I've seen universal century, future century, and poor old anno domini - and that's without leaving Gundam. I've seen enough old shows to be thoroughly amused by Kidou Senkan Nadesico, but I can carry my weight in a conversation about the present day - I've seen selecao and johnnies (if dropping it halfway through), I've seen nuclear war in sentient beards, I've seen shinigami who fight with bankai and think they're collecting dragonballs and shinigami who drop books, I've seen hikkikomori have adventures more interesting than any most functioning human beings have, and not just the hikkikomori who play battle royale with dolls.
I've seen Anglican vampires and the paper mages of the ruthless British Library. I've seen Britain led into battle by a man who takes performance-enhancing drugs and dies in the middle of a fight. I've seen the Holy Britannian Empire with all the court politics of China at its worst - I've seen a Japanese aristocrat cry as the 100th British emperor tells her to prepare for democracy. And that's just *Britain* - I've at least started multiple anime about crossdressing knights in 1760s France. (IIRC, d'eon and oscar are pretty close contemporaries.)
I've seen computers. I know computers. I've seen MMORPG addiction take a literal turn, I've empathized with a man who can't sex his computer, I've seen four great anime about kids adventuring in a digital world, and I'm about to start watching a fifth. I've seen goggles that do nothing and glasses that let you see awesome adventurous virtual reality. I've seen giant robots shaped like animals and giant robots who turn into animals, but the latter I associate far more with Beast Wars than Car Robots.
I've seen logic battles, pokemon battles, and card battles (the latter on motorbikes), along with the old "kill each other" battles. I've cried over Go and Rock-paper-scissors, I've been awed by mahjong and baseball. I've seen schoolgirl lesbians, recently genderswapped lesbians, and fencing lesbians. I've seen open gays who could rock and (a lot more, I've never been that into yaoi) gays who half the fanbase insist is straight despite all the evidence - and I've regrettably seen the writer ignore the evidence at least once. I've seen host clubs, magic users clubs, yuki sohma fanclubs, all-purpose fandom clubs and countless student councils which do little actual government.
I haven't loved every minute. I've seen too many shows for that. But... it's awesome. The vast majority I've seen is really, really awesome.
...I love anime.
(And although I don't think I've mentioned anything that obscure, you still have my utmost respect if you can name all of the series I've referenced.)
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| Thursday, June 25th, 2009
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8:19 pm - This might be completely tasteless of me to say...
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ZOMG KIRA KILLED MICHAEL JACKSON.
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| Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
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11:09 pm
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I'm tired of fighting back suicidal thoughts. I just want to get to the part of my life where I don't have them anymore - though right now, it sure feels like that part of my life is "the past". Therapy's useless, medication only helps so much, and while I want to think love will save me (and in all fairness, there's a distinct possibility I'd have been cheered up drastically and not writing this entry if my girlfriend was online today) right now I think that's something only one's first love can do.
And if mine wanted me not to... then I would never have become a NEET or been on suicide watch in the first place. (yes, people change over the years, yes, she's probably not dead, yes, it's possible she'll someday feel remorse and try to make amends... but not bloody likely.)
It's all the worse after a month or so of them being pushed back, too. But memories suck like that.
*cries*
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10:50 pm
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Spent hours constructing this. I always said I lost count of how many anime I watched, but I think it's more than enough to merit the appellation "otaku". XP
http://myanimelist.net/animelist/birdboy2000
I'm up for discussing most of them (except the ones I dropped), though some I saw years ago and barely remember, while others have painful memories associated with them. Episode numbers for series listed as "on hold" are from memory - I may in fact be elsewhere. (Most of them I wouldn't mind picking up at some point, if I can get my hands on 'em, though some are higher priority than others and I want to finish Harlock first.)
Seen part of 281 titles, finished 153 of 'em. ("Titles" in this context meaning everything from a movie to a 270-episode series, and I listed shows as finished even if I missed an episode here and there, or I skipped the filler season at the end. BUT EVEN STILL.)
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4:20 pm - Maybe living well is the best revenge...
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| Sunday, June 21st, 2009
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12:56 am
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Played Civ all day. That and Victoria: Revolutions.
...there are worse things to become, I suppose. Strategy games are win, after all. And it's not like I have anything else to do except maybe try and see if I can throw a costume together before Otakon.
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| Friday, June 19th, 2009
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11:44 pm - Meme from [lj user=vethica]
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RULES: Comment and I'll LJ stalk you to find THREE FANDOMS you apparently love. And then you answer these questions about them!
01: What got you into this fandom in the first place?
02: Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
03: Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc.?
04: Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
05: Do you think that more people should get into this fandom?
Pokemon:
01. The commercials. Once some other kids at school told me WTF it was, I gave the anime a try - been hooked ever since.
02. For eleven years, people have said I'd move on. I'm about as active as ever.
03. The anime's best in the Charizard vs. Articuno and Charizard vs. Magmar fights and some of the earlier movies, although I'm also partial to the episode Pidgeot leaves. As for the games... Plat.
04. Yep. I'm a semi-regular at Bulbagarden's chatroom, post on the forums...rarely, wrote plenty of fics and will probably write more.
05. It's huge as it is - so huge I won't notice them - but yes. POKEMON DESERVES AN IMMENSE FANDOM, DAMMIT.
Digimon:
01. A post on UPnetwork discussing the so-called "pokemon ripoffs" of digimon and monster rancher. Turned it on hoping for a clone, got something much better.
02. On one hand, my activity has dropped a great deal in the past couple years. But move on completely? It's as big a part of me as anything, with all the time I spent there, and a damn good anime or five to boot. So I can't - I cosplayed it last AB, wrote a drabble recently, will turn out something for every Odaiba Memorial until the day I die.
03. WHY DO YOU ASK SUCH HARD QUESTIONS? Umm... the Dark Masters' arc of 01, mostly. It had plenty of angsty moments, but I *like* angst, and I loved how they brought every digimon back and killed off half of 'em. Monster anime + dark = BIRDBOY WILL LOVE THIS. (But I'm too squicked by guro to look at Narutaru...)
04. Yes. I keep numerous digimon comms on my flist and will post in them from time to time, I put up a drabble recently - as I said, my activity's dropped, but I'm still there AND WILL BE FOREVER.
05. Absolutely. MY PURPOSE IN LIFE USED TO BE DRAGGING PEOPLE INTO THIS FANDOM. AND IT'S NOT A BAD PURPOSE, EITHER. It's an old series (or at least, adventure is) but it doesn't get the kind of analysis Evangelion does, despite (at least late 01 and Tamers, from what I've heard) being totally able to merit it - it's far from discussed to death. It has a ton of amazing writers ficcing for it, and I can point you to plenty of 'em. (The same could be said of a lot of fandoms probably, but I've seen great digimon fic firsthand.) And Savers has enough ridiculous and GAR and awesome that it should steal Gurren Lagann's fanbase - it didn't get much of one when it aired at all. (Or maybe it did somewhere I wasn't looking? I'm not active at withthewill or whatever the main digimon site is these days.)
Code Geass:
01. /a/. This is completely the fault of 4chan's /a/.
02. I rate it very highly, and I'm not going to leave the comms I'm currently in, but as fandom activity dies down I expect to think about it less and less. That said, it's still a great anime to watch with people.
03. That's a tough one, because I'm forgetting where one episode begins and one ends by now, and remember specific scenes more than episodes... episode 11 of R2, for ninja meido Sayoko and some nice politicking and battles, I guess.
04. Not really. I'll discuss it - did so plenty when it was coming out - but I don't think I can recapture it's unique feel in text (and I'd have to give it a rewatch to pin characters down just right) so I haven't ficced it or anything.
05. Why not? I like my fandoms big, and it needs new blood now that the series ended.
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| Wednesday, June 17th, 2009
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10:58 pm - For anyone following events in Iran
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Twitter grid for Iran
Also, the poster Tatsuma on FARK.com continues to have an excellent writeup. Go there, find the current Iran thread, it'll be on the first page.
More protests tomorrow. Likely confrontation at Khamenei-led prayers on friday. MARG BAR DIKTATOR.
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| Sunday, June 14th, 2009
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2:21 pm
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History seems to be unfolding on Twitter - but then again, Tiananmen Square was also history. Best wishes to the Iranian people.
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| Saturday, June 13th, 2009
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4:30 pm - I wish I remembered my dreams.
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I dreamt twice this week. Don't know of what - I have a terrible memory for dreams. (Yes, I wish I dreamed regularly enough to blog them.)
What I do remember, however, is how they've been starting. I put my head down on the pillow, close my eyes, and try to sleep. But I can't sleep at first, so I think, and my thoughts race around, regarding whatever's on my mind today.
...and then my thoughts gain a certain disconnect from reality. Like... I wonder what to do in my EU3 game next. Except I'm not the Ottomans anymore, I'm Venice. And not Venice in a new game, Venice in my old Ottoman-wank. But it's not like I just changed countries - I think about, say, invading small Greek states which don't exist in the game - not "got conquered", but "not in the game's coding". And then I realize I'm dreaming.
It's pretty fun, actually. Don't know how I do it, though, and it's quite different from how I used to dream...
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